Judge?

No matter how hard you try to be your best, to be honest or do something right, there are always who try to pull you down, to say negative about you, to make you feel horrible and the most important is : they don't like you at all.
I'm not the best, I'm imperfect, I'm immature. I'm so far from good. But why do I make this? I'm just using my logic to share something a little bit important.
Many people say that 'if you don't know about me, please don't judge me.' is that right? Okay, for me it is absolutely right. 
But if you think deeper, this is not an appropriate quote to be shared. 
That's why people judge you is because they don't know about you, they just know you from the outside, so they only can talk about you behind. 
They haven't known you, they judge. They know you, they judge. The differences of them are : the first : they only talk about you depends what people talk about you too. the second : they talk about you is based on what they feel of being your friend.

Let me give you a short story. 



A doctor ran a rush into the hospital for emergency surgery call .
He answered the call as soon as possible, changed clothes and went straight to surgery operating room.
He met with the father of the child back and forth along the hall waiting for the doctor to come.

When he saw the doctor, the father shouted:
" Why came so long? Didn't you know that my son's life in danger? What you don't have a sense of responsibility? "

The doctor smiled and replied:
" I'm sorry , I wasn't in the hospital and I came as soon as possible after receiving the call, and now I ask you to calm down so I can do my job. "

" Calm? What if your child is in there at the moment, how can you calm? 
If your child died today, what would you do?" Replied the father , holding an anger.

The doctor smiled again and replied: " I quote the words of bible , ' from the ground back to the ground , blessed be the name of the Lord' Doctors can't lengthen the human lifespan . I will try my best in the glory of God "



The operation lasted several hours and the doctor was out excited.
" Thank God , your child safe "
Without waiting for an answer from his father , he kept walking " if you want to ask , ask the nurse. "

" why is he so arrogant ? Even he couldn't wait a minute so I can inquire about the state of my son " the father comments on a nurse .

The nurse replied , crying , her tears streaming down her face:

" His son died yesterday in an accident , he was in the funeral when we called him the child of a father to operate . And now after saving the child of the father, he had to rush back to his funeral." 




Truth may surprise you. Whatever you do, right or wrong. You'll always be judged in front or behind. But at least, be a person who thinks a lot without underestimating. And don't waste your time to change what people think of you, change yourself to be the best. 
Good night^^

My poem :)

Acknowledged my weakness of losing you

You said that we would always be like this

You promised me 

To stay right beside me till the end of your life.

I smiled, then I cried

Hugging a pillow in my room

Thinking about you and me

How far you are..

How could you keep your promise while we're not together in the same place?

You came to me again

I wished you to sing a song for me

You sang a song that I like

Till I fell asleep on your shoulder

And my tears were falling down to your hand.

Cause I knew you were my everything

You only crossed my mind once

Cause you knew, you never left

And I didn't allow anyone to replace you

You taught me how to love

You gave everything I wanted

But you forgot to teach me how to enhance my strength

When you're gone.

Random

Well, I actually don't know the title that's suitable for this, so I just write it "random".
I just wanna share about someone who means a lot for me *ceileh*, yeah just a little bit, I just use my spare time by blogging, I'm not GALAU, I have mixed feelings about blogging this but for sure I just miss him suddenly out of the blue, hehehe :D
What does it feel when you lose someone who means a lot for you? You do your best, you make an effort, you fight with those bad conditions, you always try to make them happy, but they disappear.
Whatever it is.. 

I just ended my relationship with my boyfriend, I felt sad, I always cried, I changed a lot, and so many bad things I had done, but it didn't last long till I met someone. 
I don't want to mention his name, just people around me who know about his name.
He came into my life brought the happiness, for the first time we knew each other, I felt something different with him. I felt comfortable, but you know the first time I stalked his account and saw his photos, I thought "wow! he was so interesting!". I liked the sweet smile he has, I liked how he treated his friends, I liked all about him :D
One night when I was listening to music while laying on my bed, I got a text message but I didn't notice that, I really enjoyed my music.
I read that text message which contains an introduction message by mentioning my name. "Hi.. Maria yah? :)"
You know what? I didn't even want to reply the message like that. So I deleted it.
When night turned into morning, I saw the message again in my phone. "Kok gak dibales sih smsnya neng? hehe" It annoyed me, REALLY. I was angry and replied it with uncontrollably words.
I was shocked when he said his name is...... I didn't believe easily, I opened my account and asked him there and it was TRUE! 
Someone gave my number to him, someone told him that I just broke up with my boyfriend, and it seemed like the person offered the chance to him.
I felt sorry, I apologized for many times but it didn't matter he said. He always tried to cheer me up, he was a good listener for me, and also the best giver solution ever.
He's good at music, He's smart, He doesn't like sport (not too much I mean), He was vocalist in his band, and many more. 
One day, we were hostile, he was angry with me so were his friends. I knew I was fool, why this happened to me?
At that moment I really felt lose, I apparently loved him so much, I cried out loud, I couldn't forgive myself.
He talked to me that he was not angry but his disappointment was on the top, I didn't do anything, I blamed myself everyday. We didn't communicate for 3 months till he contacted me again by messaging me on facebook, asked how had I been, and he told me that he actually missed to talk to me.

We lived our days as usual, he's so far from me but as long as he contacted me it felt so near, maybe it was called as LOVE.
He asked me how if he had come to my city, I replied with many smiley emoticons, and I really hoped it would be true. 
It was undeniable he really came to my city, he picked me up from school, he took me to my home, he introduced himself with my parents, we went hang out together till I felt really something different with him when saturday night.
Surely he didn't come here alone, but with his friends. He rented the stage in a cafe here just to perform for me. He said that the songs were brought by them just for the girl who wore white dress and sat behind the flower. He pointed me and I smiled. He was everything! 
I couldn't say anything, I wanted to talk about my feeling to him that night, but I was not brave enough, I didn't have the guts. But I knew he's a good man! I appreciated it. I just said that I really thanked for what he had done. I felt sorry about what happened between us, I didn't mean to do that but it crossed my mind every I saw your name in my phone, so I didn't want you to leave me anymore, please stay. I held his hand suddenly and it was beyond my consciousness! 
I just wanted to be honest. He said that he promised he wouldn't leave me, he couldn't be angry with me but when he was disappointed he would tell the truth, he would always care with me, he said that he had never felt like this before, he thanked to me that I had taught so many things in life, I wanted to accept his bad sides, we were not in a relationship but he felt like he was.

I really didn't know why for 4 years I knew him I didn't want to make him as my boyfriend. Oh yaa! I just have one reason that I didn't want to lose him especially when we broke up someday. 

One day, when the day was his birthday I said my birthday greetings to him and I had been the first for 4 times! Yihaaaa :D
We had been talking so long though my dad asked me to sleep, I didn't care.
Suddenly he asked me, what if I asked you to be my girlfriend, I replied with BIG NO. I meant for now, I enjoyed about us. 
He laughed at me, He asked me about my feelings, whether it was true or not that I loved him, he knew that I posted his photo on my account lol :)) 
It's okay I told him fluently. 
I told him that the person I always talked about is him, I loved him for the first time we met, for the first time I saw his photos he looked so interesting till I couldn't help myself from thinking about him, I missed him everyday, I felt comfortable when he was with me, though he was so far it didn't matter, I collected his photos more than mine, sometimes when I was bored I always wrote his name on my table, and I loved to listen to the songs which were given by him. I loved everything about him, I didn't care for every problem he had, If I could, we would face them together, I told him that I would always be by his side, through the good and bad. 
I cried.. I cried.. Then he asked me to stop crying. He said that he was fool, he said that he didn't realize what I wanted, what I felt, he told the same that he really loved me, but he couldn't make me to be his, his problems were so many, he didn't want to involve people around him, he believed with me, he thanked to me, he said that he wouldn't leave me, he missed my voice everyday, but if I wanted to leave him someday, he was willing to accept all. He said that he wasn't a good boy, He prayed for me that I must had the man who was suitable for me, good, interesting and more more more....

Day by day, I was too busy with my activities till I forgot him anyway, he came to me again, as usual we live our days together :D
I felt happy everyday, but the problem came into my life when my friend started to like him. 
They met accidentally, she didn't even know that I loved him so much but she just knew that I was his friend. What an abandoned girl.
They became close, I became jealous. So jealous. 
What I thought of them were different from expectation, my friend actually so expected to him, but he only considered her as his sister and his friend. 
I was really happy, he always had spare time for me, though he was busy he always told me, but not for her.
I told her that I loved him so much, longer than she knew about him, she was shocked. 
She told me that she loved him too, she wouldn't leave him, she always cared with him. And it really made me BLEW UP!
I had been keeping it till I found the right time to tell it all. 
I told him that it was better to look for a girlfriend for him, I didn't want to he fell in love with my friend. I begged to him.
But he said that he had been waiting for the girl he loved. I really got it what he meant. I knew, but he hadn't been ready, he would always wait for that girl.

"if you wanted me to have a girlfriend, it's okay. If you could be happy with it, I accepted. Maybe you had found the right man now, it's okay. And about your friend, I just considered her as my sister, cause she always needed my help. I didn't love her, I loved that girl, Mar."

He had already got a girlfriend, when one month passed I said "happy anniversary", and asked him about his relationship, he enjoyed it, I smiled. 
Suddenly I felt regret about this, why always at the wrong time we met? I really would be his, but I couldn't. Just one reason I didn't want to break up with him. 
Maybe it was not the right time. I decided myself to leave him for a while. I said that I needed his help to not contact me as long as I didn't contact him. I just wanted to disappear, I didn't want to disturb his happiness. He didn't agree at first, but finally he wanted. 


I miss him right now anyway, I dreamed about him so many times nowadays, when my birthday his friend told me that he missed me, he prayed for me to get everything I want and don't forget to be strong for every problem I have.
You know reader, he's really a good man that I've been waiting for. I gotta take the risks for what happen and will happen to me, and someday I'm gonna make him to be mine, I just need the right time with the right decision, also the guts.
Good night!
Thanks for reading. 
Much love<3<3

Kita Jalanin Dulu Aja

"Gak kerasa yah sekarang kita udah SMA, udah gede gini kita, udah jadi remaja, udah pake putih abu-abu, dulu masih putih biru" kata Gege. 

Gege adalah sahabat-kance-sohib-kawan-tempat_curhat gue dimanapun dan kapanpun. Gege itu cuma nama panggilan, tapi nama aslinya adalah Gladys. 

Nah, perkenalin nama gue adalah Gloria, gue biasa dipanggil Gigi sama si Gege, jadi kebanyakan temen-temen gue memanggil gue juga "Gigi".

Yah memang agak lucu, lucu banget malah, kalo tiap kali gue jalan bareng si Gege pasti yang kena tegur gue duluan. "eh, ada Gigi-nya Gege".

Dafug, untung gue gak jigongan, kalo gak nanti dibilang gue giginya Gege yang jigongan dong????! Ah whatever pokoknya walau gue gak suka sebenernya sama nama panggilan ini awalnya, tapi gue udah terbiasa dan santai-santai aja.

Gue bersahabat sama Gege sejak kita kelas 4SD, lumayan lah sekarang aja udah masuk SMA, sebenernya gue bosen tiap hari ketemu dia dari SD, SMP, SMA ketemu lagi satu sekolah bahkan satu kelas!

"Ge, sebenernya lo kesel gak sih ketemu gue terus?"

"Jujur sih, gue kesel loh, muka lo itu ngeselin tiap hari, orang mah tambah cantik kek biar enak dipandang."

"Wah sialan lo, emang lo cantik? Muka kayak adonan bakwan aja belaga"

"Cantik lah hahaha lo ini apaan sih dasar pantat kuali"

Kalo kita udah ngobrol, pasti ada aja yang diobrolin, pasti lama, pasti gue lupa waktu, gue lupa makan, gue lupa segala-galanya, dan bahkan gue lupa kalo gue lagi di kelas, lebih parahnya gue lupa kalo di kelas itu ada guru...........

"HEH Gloria! Ini kelas, bukan kandang ayam! Kalo mau ngobrol sana diluar aja gak usah ikut pelajaran saya!"

"Iya bu, saya diam. Saya tau kok ini kelas bukan kandang ayam"

"Bagus! Darimana kamu bisa bedakan mana kelas dan kandang ayam kalo sukanya ngobrol terus daritadi hah???!"

"Ya soalnya saya lagi ngomong sama orang, bukan sama ayam Bu."

Satu kelas tertawa terbahak-bahak. Kelas menjadi gempar. 

Lalu ibu itu berteriak. "SUDAAAAAAAHHHHH DIAAAAAAAM SEMUAAAAAAAAA! Gladys dan Gloria sana kalo mau ngobrol diluar aja kalian, kalian itu dibiayai orang tua untuk belajar bukan untuk gossip di kelas!"

Yah, namanya juga kance mau gimana lagi sifat kita gak beda-beda jauh lah jadinya, asal ceplos sana sini kalo ngomong. Dengan segera Gladys mendekat ke gue, lalu membisikkan sesuatu. "emang siapa yang lagi gossip? kita kan lagi ngobrol, emang dia dibayar disini untuk marah-marah? kan buat ngajar. iya gak bro?"

"iya, bener juga kata lo. sok tau nih guru, tapi kok lo bilangnya "bro" bukan "sis?"

"emang apa bedanya sih? emang kita cewek tulen? hihihihi"

"iya, kita kan cover wanita dalamnya pria yah ge?"

"ambigu bahasa lo sumpah, lo aja itu mah hahahaha"

Sudah hampir setahun kita sekolah di SMA ini, banyak kenangan-kenangan selama hampir setahun ini. Sekolah disini rasanya asik banget. Hingga akhirnya datanglah masalah baru yang biasa dikait-kaitkan sama remaja, gak lain dan gak bukan masalah cinta. 

Berhubung gue mengambil ekstrakurikuler BASKET, dan Gege mengambil ekstrakulikuler VOLLY, jadwal latihan kita berbeda walaupun hari sama.

Gege adalah seorang cewek paling supel yang gue kenal, gak jauh beda sama gue gini cuman yah yang namanya tiap manusia punya banyak perbedaan. Gue gak se-pecicil-an Gege, Gege gak se-cool gue *ceileh* *muntah sagu*

Dari dulu kalo udah masalah percintaan, gue harus pasang telinga dalem-dalem dan mata yang tajam untuk nanggepin curhatan dia.
Perbedaan antara kami sangat terlihat jelas kalo udah masalah percintaan, Gege itu bisa dibilang PHP (pemberi hahaha palsu), kalo gue PHP (pemberi harapan palsu). Walau sebenarnya gue bukan seorang PHP, tapi apa daya gue udah terkenal dengan julukan seperti itu, gue hanya ingin berteman dengan semua, gue cewek yang gak pekaan, gue terlalu cuek akan orang-orang sekeliling gue, beda dengan Gege begitu deket sama cowok langsung aja semuanya diperjuangkan. Padahal gue udah jelasin kalo itu sangat-amat-teramat bodoh, "sayang itu dicicil aja jangan langsung diambrukin ke doi."

Di sekolah ini, gue punya banyak temen akrab. Tapi itu gak bikin gue lupain si Gege, Gege adalah "pacar" gue di sekolah, dan diluaran juga. Satu sekolah tau akan hal itu, dimana ada Gege pasti ada Gigi (gue).
Sampai suatu hari gue jatuh cinta diam-diam dengan salah satu anggota team volly Gege, tapi gue belum sempat ceritain akan hal ini ke Gege, yah karena menurut gue ini bukan hal yang terlalu penting.
Gue selalu memperhatikan gerak-gerik cowok tersebut, walaupun gak tau namanya yang penting bisa liat mukanya hehehehe, ah ngawur aja lah Gi. *tepok jidat sendiri*


Lama kelamaan gue gak bisa nahan rasa ini, setiap kali istirahat gue celingak celinguk ke lapangan basket tempat anak cowok biasa duduk-duduk, mau itu kakak kelas ataupun sepantaran gue. 
Tapi emang yang namanya sahabat, pasti bisa ngerti apa yang kita lakukan, dan gue pun kepergok nengak-nengok sama Gege.

"woy hahahaayyyyy ngapaen lo hah? mau maling rok siapa?"

"hah? apa maksud lo?"

"alah Gi... Gi... jawab pertanyaan gue, ngapaen lo nengak nengok kanan kiri daritadi kayak maling aja"

"emang maling gw mah."

"sejak kapan ada maling ngaku ye?"

"iyalah gue kan demennya maling hati hehehe"

*PLAKKKKK!!!* buset... gue dikeplak pake dompet Gege yang tebelnya kayak kamus.

"gak usah nganar, siapa sih yang lo liatin?"

"kayaknya dia anak volly Ge.. pasti lo tau.. tuh yang lagi nengok ke kiri pake gelang warna biru di tangan kanan, rambutnya ada jambul dikit, dan..."

"alah stopppp!!! Kevin????"

"Oh itu namanya Kevin? Ah masa sih namanya Kevin? Yang bener lo?"

"Alah bodo lah Gi.. tanya aja sama emaknya sono!"

"Gimana lah mau kenal emaknya, anaknya aja gue gak berani kenalan"

"Perlu gue bertindak? gimana?"

"Gak usah Ge, biasanya kalo lo bertindak itu merusak sebuah rencana."

"Emang kenapa sih kalo nama dia Kevin? Dia kan waktu dikasih nama waktu masih bayi, jadi gak bisa milih."

"Mantan gue kan Kevin juga namanya Geeeee.... bosen lah gue"

"Bosen mah yaudah buat gue aja"

"Wah setahanan gini lo sama kawan!" 

"Hahahahaha abis sok jaim sih lo, tapi emang dia ganteng kok banyak yang ngesir."

Waktu Gege bilang kalo dia banyak yang ngesir langsung aja hati gue remuk. Remuk hancur tak berbentuk, tapi jangan panggil gue Gloria kalo begini aja gue nyerah. of course gue semangatin diri gue sendiri, soalnya selaen diri gue sendiri mungkin cuma Gege yang bisa ngasih semangat. Hufffttttt!!!

















Akhirnya hari yang ditunggu-tunggu datang juga! What is it? Yupppp bagi rapottttt! Walau gue tau kalo nilai gue pas-pasan tapi gue tetep seneng, soalnya kalo bagi rapot yang ngambil pasti nyokap gue dan setelah ngambil rapot langsung pergi liburan!

Nyampe di sekolah orang yang pertama gue cari adalah Kevin. Kevin mana ya kevin, pikir gue. 
Kenapa Kevin? Soalnya gue tau Gege kalo bagi rapot pasti gak akan mau dateng, dia lebih memilih tidur di rumah daripada harus mengambil buku gak penting itu *katanya*.
Seketika jalan di koridor kelas, gue berpapasan sama Kevin, gue takut untuk negor duluan sampe bibir gue gemetaran.
Tapi ternyata dia yang negor gue duluan, Kevin adalah kakak kelas gue, mungkin dia bersikap ramah pada semua adik kelasnya. Gue gak boleh GR!
"Gloria ya? Gimana rapotnya? Udah ngambil?"
"Hah?"
"Kok bingung? ada apa?" Kevin tersenyum.
"Oh gak kenapa-napa kak, ra..rapppooot aku uda diambil kok hehe. eh maksudnya lagi diambil sama mama."
"Oh gitu, yaudah aku kesana duluan ya."
"Iya kak, dahhh.. hehe"
"Eh, ngomong-ngomong nanti mau ngambil IPA apa IPS?"
"Kalo kakak ngambilnya apa?"
"Aku IPS nih."
"Yaudah, aku juga IPS hehe.."
"Loh kok gitu?"
"Eh bukan, maksudnya aku emang mau ngambil IPS kak, gak mau IPA."
"Ohhh, lucu ya kamu haha. Jangan panggil Kak ah, panggil nama aja Kevin. Ok?"
"Iya kevin.. aku kesana dulu ya mau liat rapot hehe"
"Okeee, byeee"

Seandainya Gege datang ke sekolah, gue mau ceritain ke dia kalo hari ini gue senenggggg banget! Wauuuw muka gue ternyata memerah kayak tomat busuk. -_-

Selama liburan gue seneng-seneng sampe lupa kalo gue bakal sekolah lagi, Gue liburan ke bandung, Gege liburan ke jakarta. Gege mengajak gue untuk masuk 1 minggu setelah hari masuk sekolah, berarti gue disuruh bolos 1 minggu? Emang bener-bener ajakan setan. Gak bisa.. Gak bisa.. untuk seseorang yang lagi jatuh cinta, rasa kangen itu bener-bener ada. Hehehe jadi maap yah Gege sayang.



Tepat hari ini gue masuk sekolah di kelas 11 IPS :) 
Oh Tuhan.. Kenapa harus sekelas sama GEGE lagi? Astaga, gue bosen sumpah ngeliat muka dia lagi. Ngobrol sama dia lagi di kelas sampe sakit perut dan rahang gue pegel. Tapi setelah sekian lama gak ketemu dia, anak itu lebih ngangenin daripada Kevin.
Dan saat gue masuk ke kelas, taruh tas gue di kursi, gak lama kemudian Gege masuk kelas. Gue kaget! Kenapa dia masuk hari ini? Katanya mau bolos 1 minggu? Apa ada angin topan menyambar rumahnya semalem? Tumben anak ini pikirannya lurus, dan gak cuman itu aja Gege juga beda dari sebelum-sebelumnya. Rapi, cerah, dan dia jauh lebih cantik, pokoknya beda banget! 
Satu kelas semua tercengang melihat Gege, tak terkecuali gue. Gue yang selama ini selalu deket sama dia aja heran, apalagi mereka.

"Ge, ini Gege kan? Gladys kan?"
"Bukan, ini BCL."
"Bunga Citra Lestari? idihhh.."
"Bukan, BCL : Belom Cebok Lari."
"HAHAHAHA jayus lo! kok lo cantik sih Ge sekarang?"
"Bukannya dari dulu Gi?"

Kampret, baru kali ini gue muji dia. Dan dia ternyata belum berubah sifatnya, syukurlah.

Di kelas, Gege diajak ngobrol sama temen sekelas gue, namanya Rio.

"Ge, perasaan lo dulu gak begini?"

"Ya kenapa sih lo, sewot amat."

"Ya gpp sih, yang sewot mah lo jadinya bukan gue."

"Yatah woy? Yabodo lah."

"Cantik banget sih lo sekarang hehe."

"Sini buku tulis lo!"

"Buat apaan?"

"Udah sini dulu buruan.."

Rio memberikan buku tulisnya ke Gege, gak lama kemudian..... sret sret sret sret sreeeeeeet! 

"Selesai!" teriak Gege.

"Lo apain buku gue? What? Tanda tangan?"

"Jarang kan lo dapet tanda tangan orang cantik?"

"Sialan lo Ge, kalo bukan cewek aja udah gue cium."

"Dih homo dong lo?"

"Cium pake sepatu maksud gue."


Melihat mereka sedang bercengkrama, gue hanya menundukkan kepala di meja, gue menunggu bel istirahat untuk melihat Kevin. Kok rasanya lama banget yaaaaaaaaaah, dari ngantuk, laper, sampe gak ngerasa apa-apa. 
Apa ini jam nya gak mau muter tah? Harus gue yang ke ruang wakil kepsek untuk bunyiin bel sekolah? 
Eh gak lama dari ngedumel-dumel, akhirnya bel sekolah bunyi juga. Gue dan Gege seperti biasa ke kantin, lalu jalan-jalan muterin lapangan sambil ngobrol-ngobrol, emang panjang umur gue langsung ketemu Kevin di jalan. Kevin menegur gue. "Hei!"
Gue kaget sekaligus senang. "Hei juga" sahut gue sambil tersenyum.

"Ah kalian ini apa-apan sih sok-sok hai hei hai hei, eh vin lo dateng ya ntar sore jam 4 kita mau latihan buat tanding bulan depan." sahut Gege.

"Oke siap bos!"

Gue bener-bener gak bisa nyembunyiin perasaan ini, gue bener-bener suka sama Kevin. 
Tapi dari dulu hal yang gak pernah gue lakukan adalah : NGAREP.
Se-suka apapun gue sama cowok, gue gak pernah tanamkan rasa NGAREP sama dia. Gue takut jatuh terlalu dalam, sakitnya juga terlalu dalam.






Kevin selalu semangat latihan untuk tandingnya, begitu juga Gege. Gue pasti nonton dong mereka tanding! Sohib gue tanding masa iya gue gak nonton, yah sambil ambil kesempatan dikit lah buat nonton dia. Hehehe.
Gue ngasih ucapan selamat waktu dia menang, ini pertama kali gue megang tangannya dan lihat senyum manis di bibirnya, mabuk kepayang deh gue, sampe gue lupa ngomong "selamat" buat sohib gue sendiri, untung dia gak marah, dia emang paling mengerti gue.

2 minggu lagi adalah hari valentine, di sekolah gue ngadain acara valentine. Dimana cewek harus ngasih surat cinta ke cowok, tapi suratnya dikumpulin ke osis, dan osis akan pilih 5 surat dari cewek yang bakal dibacain di depan umum. 
Gue mengumpulkan niat dan keberanian untuk nulis surat buat Kevin, sementara si Gege tenang-tenang aja dia gak tau harus ngirim buat siapa, bahkan dia nyuruh gue untuk ngerjain itu semua.
Akhirnya karena gue pikir dia adalah temennya Kevin, gue buat juga 2 surat untuk Kevin.

Tiba acara itu pas hari valentine. Gue deg-degan aja, tapi si Gege diem-diem aja, dia nyantai dengan coklat hasil 'rampokan'.

"Ge, kok lo gak deg-degan sih?"

"Deg-degan kenapa lah?"

"Kalo surat lo dibacain di depan umum gimana?"

"Yaudah, biarin aja. Itu kan cuman maenan aja"

"Iya sih.. bener juga."

Eng.....ing........engggggggggg!!!!!! Tiba saatnya osis membacakan 5 surat pilihan. Edan mah nih ketua osis, dia pake mic pula, naek di atas panggung, dan cewek yang suratnya kena harus naek ke atas panggung. 

"Okeee... dan ini surat terakhir yang ke 5 yaaa, kita buka dari siapa untuk siapa nih hmmm..
Wah, ternyata dari Gladys untuk Kevin Andrean 12 ips 2. Mana Gladys??"

Semua bertepuk tangan dan bersorak-sorak. Gue kaget, Gege lebih kaget. Kok bisa Gege yang kena? Gila ini diluar dugaan semua.
Gege naek ke atas panggung, tepuk tangan semakin meriah, muka Gege merah dan bibirnya terpaku diam.

"Oke, kita baca aja ya surat dari Gladys untuk Kevin Andrean 12 IPS 2."

"Kevin, di hari valentine ini gue cuman pengen nyampein tentang semua perasaan gue ke lo, dari awal gue kenal lo gue udah jatuh cinta sama lo, gue udah mencoba untuk gak mementingkan hal itu tapi bayangan lo tetap ada di pikiran gue, gak tau kenapa gue selalu kangen sama lo, gue selalu terbayang wajah lo kalo mau tidur, mungkin memang benar gue udah jatuh cinta sama lo. seandainya lo tau kalo perasaan ini gak akan pernah bisa gugur seiring berjalannya waktu."

"WAUUUUUW SO SWEET JUGA YA GLADYS!!!!" teriak ketua osis.
Semua bertepuk tangan dan bersorak-sorak, gue antara gugup dan takut, takut karena dia bakal marah sama gue.

Saat Gege turun dari panggung dan berjalan ke tengah lapangan mau nyamperin gue, Kevin dengan sigap menarik tangan Gege.

"mungkin ini hari yang tepat, makasih buat suratnya, gue sayang sama lo, dari awal gue tau lo, dari awal lo masuk, dari awal lo gabung volly, dan dari awal lo ngerubah penampilan lo sampe se-cantik ini, gue takut lo bakal marah sama gue kalo ngomong di awal, gue selalu nyuruh Rio buat foto-fotoin lo kalo di kelas, atau lo lagi main volly. Lo mau gak jadi cewek gue?" sambil memberikan seikat bunga kepada Gege.

JLEB. hati gue serasa hancur berkeping-keping, cowok yang gue sukain gak taunya sayang sama sahabat gue sendiri. Seandainya Gege tau, hati gue disini remuk abis, gue disini pengen nangis tapi gue tahan, seandainya Kevin tau ini sakit banget.

Gege tercengang.

"Vin, tapi... Gigi...."

"Kenapa gigi? Gue mau ngucapin makasih sama dia, berkat dia gue bisa lebih deket sama lo."

"Hah? Duh..."

"Kenapa ge?"

Gege tidak bisa berkata-kata saat itu, hingga dia terdiam sesaat.

"Vin, maaf gue udah sayang sama orang laen. Gue gak bisa nerima lo saat ini, karena pun kalo gue nerima lo, pasti bakal ada yang sakit hati saat ini, dan gue gak mau orang itu sakit, apalagi karena gue. Dia berharga buat gue, tolong ngertiin gue."


"Jadi, mau lo kita gimana? HTSan?"

"Bukan, KJDA.."

"Apaan tuh?"

"Kita Jalanin Dulu Aja."

"Tapi lo bakal jadi milik gue kan suatu saat?"

"Gak tau, cuman waktu yang bisa menjawab. Gue harus pergi, Gigi udah nunggu gue disana, gue gak mau dia nunggu gue kelamaan."

Gege berlari meninggalkan Kevin dan kembali ke gue. Seketika gue bertanya kepada Gege.

"Kenapa gak lo terima dia? Kan banyak yang naksir dia katanya, harusnya lo bangga Gi punya pacar kayak dia."

"Buat apa gue bangga gandeng dia Gi, kalo orang yang lebih gue sayang harus ngerasain sakit? Jangan bohongin perasaan lo ya tolong, gue kenal lo bukan kemaren, tapi udah lama, jangan munafik depan gue. Mending kita mejeng di J.co aja yuk!"

"Makasih ya Ge, tapi ngomong-ngomong tadi lo bilang lo udah sayang orang laen ke Kevin, emang siapa?"

"Hahahaha itu boongan aja dodol, gue kan sayangnya sama lo doang."

"Sialan lo lesbi gitu ya sekarang? Udah gak demen cowok lo ya?"

"Bukan gak demen cowok, tapi lagi tutup hati aja gara-gara mantan haha yuk lah capcus, kita nongkrong-nongkrong cantik."

"Ge, gue bangga sama lo. Akhirnya lo bisa juga PHP-in orang, cowok yang gue suka pula. Jadi agak minder.."

"Haaaa iyalah Gladys gitu loh! 1-0 nih ceritanya ya kita hahaha."

"Iya deh hahahah I lap yu deh Gegeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!"

MY COLLEGE LIFE.

Kali ini gue mau bercerita tentang masa-masa kuliah gue yang super duper unpredictable yet amazing. 
Setelah sekian lama gak nge-(go)-blog, akhirnya kita berjumpa kembali. :) *pasang muka super imut*
Jujur aja, gue ngerasa jauh berbeda dibandingkan dengan suasana SMA gue dulu, dimana gue bisa bergaul dengan orang-orang yang berbeda-beda suku, gak cuman itu-itu aja. 
Well, dari dulu karena gue yang selalu disekolahkan di sekolah swasta, jadi kebanyakan gue bergaul dengan suku tionghoa, walau gak semua, but at least most of them are chinese. 
Terus nih, yang ngebedain itu pelajaran-pelajaran yang didapet, kesibukan gue selama SMA dan kuliah, komparasi yang sangat amat jauh berbeda.
Gue ngerasa nyaman berada dalam keluarga ke-2 gue, bisa dibilang mereka adalah keluarga juga yang (hampir) setiap hari selalu bersama-sama.

Tadinya, gue pikir nih ya gue bakal ngerasa hampa disini, gak asyik, dan sebagainya yang menakutkan dan menghantui pikiran gue. Tapi ya ternyata perkiraan gue salah, gue gak kepikiran bakal nemuin kawan-kawan kayak mereka. They are gorgeous!
Yahhh, memang sih walaupun kuliah di kampus gue yang sekarang itu karena rasa keterpaksaan dari orang tua gue, yang awalnya gue ngotot mau kuliah ke luar kota dan masuk negeri, well that was only just my dream. 



Dan setelah ngoceh banyak-banyak disini, gue cuman mau kenalin teman-teman akrab gue yang kemana-mana selalu bareng-bareng, kalo udah di kampus nih gue bisa gak ngeladenin sms dari orang lain karena inbox gue penuh dengan sms mereka yang gak lain dan gak bukan kalo sms awalnya pasti nanya "dimana lo?" "dianam lo?" "anam bro?" "dimana mar?" "mar, lu dimana?" "woi sini sekret" "kantin yuk, mana lo mar?", dan lain lain laaaah argghhhhhh. pokoknya itu intinya!
Gilaaaa! kalo udah sama mereka sih asli, gue pasti lupa waktu, dan lupa untuk pulang ke rumah HAHAHA. 
Mungkin kalo bisa nginep di kampus, kita bakal nginep di kampus rame-rame, I've been thinking to try it someday lol :))



Nah, yang pertama mau gue kenalin itu namanya FUNKY RULITA. Cewek yang satu ini kocak abis, pas banget sama gue, anaknya pecicilan, gak bisa diem, suka ngelawak bareng-bareng, rame lah pokoknya.
Tapi gini-gini dia hijab loh! HAHAHA. Gue kenal dia awal dari awal-awal masuk kuliah percepatan gitu di kampus. 
Kalo smsan sama dia, pasti kita hobinya ngongekin orang laen, yah gak jauh-jauh lah antara Franklin atau Fadli. Baca sms ngakak-ngakak tiap malem sampe ditegur nyokap ya karena dia ini. 
Funky ini cewek yang udah gak kenal malu kalo di depan umum, maksud gue yah tergolong cewek yang berani tampil. Dari mulai joget cesar, sampe oplosan dia bisa. Proud of you deh pung!
Oh ya, selaen itu dia hobinya wifian gratis di kampus dengan netbook kesayangannya itu.

@FunkyRulitaSF

Nah yang ke dua, namanya Franklin Zepanya Simamora. Dari namanya aja udah ketawan kalo dia ini cowok batak. Eitssss... tapi dia ini cowok yang ramah lho, baik, selalu ceria, murah senyum (sampe-sampe giginya kering sendiri), taat beragama, bisa jaga perasaan cewek, dan yang terlebih lagi nih anaknya pendeta sob! HAHAHAHA.
Kalo lagi kumpul sama dia, gak ketawa itu rasanya gak mungkin. Ada aja bahasa baru yang bisa dikeluarin dari mulutnya. 
Kawan gue yang satu ini jago maen alat musik, kalo lagi sendu bawaannya pengen terus megang gitar, tipe cowok yang teguh pada pendirian juga. Kayaknya gue kebanyakan muji dia, berani bayar berapa ya dia ke gue? Hmm.

Ceritanya nih, waktu lagi nongkrong-nongkrong imut di kantin ber4, dia ingin melestarikan suku dia, jadi dia buatlah ini :

Sangking bro, padahal yang batak cuma dia!

@Franklind_TND

Buat yang ke tiga, yang selalu kena kongek kalo lagi kumpul-kumpul. Tapi ini kance gue juga kalo pegi kemana-mana.

His name is Fadli Afriyadi. Banyak yang ngomong kalo gue lagi deket sama dia pasti kayak anjing sama kucing, kerjaannya kata-kataaaaan mulu.

Tapi emang anaknya enak banget buat dikongek! HAHAHA. 

Fadli, yang selalu merendah di hadapan orang lain, tampil apa adanya (it's good), ramah, berkawan sama siapa ajaaa, dan suka banget sama yang namanya ngobrol tentang PEMERINTAHAN. 

Yah, soalnya bisa dibilang latar belakang keluarga yang mendukung, but it doesn't matter. 

Kalo pulang sama dia, ujung-ujungnya ngelancong dulu, ntah nyicip kesana kesini pokoknya ada aja tempat buat ngobrol, tapi kadang kalo ngobrol sama dia suka lucu sendiri ngeliatin matanya yang selalu "ngantuk" WKWKWKWK. Peace padddddd....^^

@FAfriyadi

Kawan gue yang namanya Funky itu, nyebut kita ber4 ini adalah PUZZLE, dimana kalo salah satu aja gak ada, pasti rasanya sepi. Tapi tenang aja kita gak suka sama yang namanya kelompok-kelompokan, walaupun kita emang selalu ber4, tapi itu gak bikin kita gak ada social life sama orang-orang lain. 

And many more lah pokoknya, buat selengkapnya bisa dilihat di album facebook gue "College Life".

Dan walaupun kadang gue merasa, kalo suatu keterpaksaan itu sangat susah dijalani, gue bersyukur gue punya mereka semua yang bisa bikin gue lupa akan hal yang namanya "keterpaksaan". 

Yah, walaupun memang saat menjalani hari-hari gue selama kuliah, gue ada dapat masalah dan gue sedih, nangis, stres, tapi gue selalu bisa untuk bangkit lagi, lagi, dan lagi karena ada mereka yang bisa dibilang 'my 2nd family'.

Thanks to all my friends, friendship lasts forever. :)